I'm very sorry to read what I have. For so long there was never cancer in my family and then my mother, then my grandpa were taken by it. Now I've got an aunt going through brain cancer. I can't really say I understand what you must be going through. Who can if they have not been told what you have? I'm your age with a child, house payments, and bills, etc. just like you. I'ts just not fair. I smoke so maybe I court disaster. You, you didn't and it's just not right. I wish nothing but the best to you and yours. Fight the good fight brother.