I've been away for a week in another country and I come home to see the absolute largest thread I've seen yet. Brother, I feel for you, for what it's worth. My brother is dealing with the same thing only he has some hope. I'm also a christian who is not a very religious person, but I do believe. What can anyone say to give you comfort? I think just the response you have had on this thread is incredible and I hope and pray it gives you some comfort. Be a good man and just know that many of us will not forget this.