krash kendall said:
It sounds to me as if you are being a little reflective on yourself and see a tired person with an empty wallet and nothing to show for it but several run of the mill, cookie cutter drinkin' stories. You then carry on with a list of attempted justifications and reasons as to why it is okay for you to drink in hopes others will say, "You've made a very good argument to support drunken redneck escapades, carry on my good man!". There's nothing wrong with drinking per say, its the white trash warrior lifestyle that can start you on the downward spiral. Write down some goals and aspirations with a completion date and go from there. That's setting yourself a new standard that make you accountable to you and you alone. Blah, blah, blah....
Well if that is the case it is definatly sub consious, I don't perticulary see any problem with how i carry on with myself or how most of my friends do. As for a empty wallet i am doing pretty good for my age but then thats kind of a stereotypical remark on alcoholism. I dont think i am seeking out help I do believe i am headed down a fine path. You talk about "drunken redneck escapades" I have something to say about that and drinking stories in general, everyone has them and it seems everyone likes to share them. I dont know why exactly but its true, if you dont believe me look at your previous post in this thread. It wasnt exactly like you stated that as being the worst night in your life? or it being the moment it all changed for you. you told a story that stuck in your head and youve probly repeated it before. It is most likely a good memory.
I dont know what i am trying to get at here, i wasnt anticipating this thread turning into such a personal discussion about me but I am intreged greatly by it and not offended by any remarks.
This may be a bit off the topic but I have some friends that have taken different paths then me. for example:
my friend jody. out of high school he moved far away from his friends and family to get into a good apprentiship and carrier, he just got married hes my age 23. This is all fine and dandy but i can see some kids being on there way soon, can you see him having a large shop full of tools, a classic stang outside, a couple quads, a dirtbike etc.? No probly not, its true that when you settle down with kids and wife that your expendable income is diminished greatly, i plan on staying single. Would you say that staying single all my life would be a bad choice?
my friend amy. She in high school was a good girl, popular, pretty and social. I think she has some insecurity issues, she sleeps around quit a bit, she will lead guys on to make herself feel better, she drinks and sleeps with different guys 2 or 3 times a week, she uses alcohole as a cover or excuse or whatever to help her overcome sleeping with all these guys. She is a smart girl and could have had a bright futer but i dont see it happening. Do you think This is bad?
I have a friend jimmey, he moved just recently at 19 for a apprentiship and carrer aswell, he moved against his will, he didnt want to leave all that he knew here, his friends and family. I think he is secretivy hitting the booz. I know he started smoking. hes off and on with girls now. His family has a history of alcoholics,hes my bud who likes to fight, blanks out when he drinks, and generaly a bad drunk unless your his friend do you think he is headed down a bad track?
then theres me. in high school i had a job at a grociery store cleaning up the meat shop, when i graduated they offered to train me as a meat cutter. i was there for 4 years after high school and all was fine untill the company went through some changes including union and i ended up with a big pay cut, I then got a job at a local sawmill that was 1.5 years ago, i dont like working at the mill so now im enrolled in heavy duty mechanics at the local college. I was making a family man wage at the age of 19 and have been since then i am almost 24 now and still single. I have alot of toys,tools etc. I dont own my home yet mostly because i have to work alot less going to school for these 9 months and i am living cheap with my gramma but i do have near $30,000 cash to put down on a house when the time comes. I have also set myself up with a financial adviser and a retirement plan. Now during all this time i have drank and partied on occasion as i did the other night, my "drinking" or partying hasnt affected anything to date other then maybe a hangover at school or work once in a while. How does this story compare to jody? amy? jimmey?
There are just so many different scenarious of people and situations that i dont think it can be summerized by any one perticualar action(s) or traits. For example i plan on getting myself into a fly in mine type job, this is where i go work in camp for 2 weeks straight and get 2 weeks off afterwards, I hear alot of stories of people becoming alcoholics and drug addicts in these camps and there wives divorcing them because there gone all the time. I seriously dont believe that working in a job like that could be solely blamed on a individual becoming a drunk or ending up divorced.
I dont know what I am trying to get it with any of this, i find i am not very good with words or explaining myself at times so if none of this makes sense I'm sorry.
-gbm-