Hey guys. Yesterday my girl friend officially broke up with me. And let me say for all of you older guys you probably know what its like, its the worst feeling in the world, to love someone that much, and to know they still have feelings for you but to know you cant hold their hand, to know you cant kiss them or be with them anymore. She was really my whole life, her family was my second family. Her mom and dad loved me, i was her brothers like best friend. Id walk in their house anytime, memories of me are planted everywhere in that house. I would wake up go to school, call her when she got home, go to her house and see her before I went to work, and we were happy. And now she has more important things to do. She has tons of hard senior classes, theatre after school everyday, her grandpa is about to die, her job is hard, she has some heart problems, and I just cant be her most important thing anymore, so she said she needed time. I can deal with time, but when she tells you she dosent think it will ever work again its hard. I dont know what to do, ive never lost anyone before, i begged her for a day told her i can be there to support her through these things instead of being a problem, she just says she cant do it anymore. I know there is no other guy, she still has so many feelings for me, i know when shes at home shes crying because of how miserable she is without me, but i dont know what to do, i seriously sit on my bed all day. I dont have an appetite, I dont want to drive, I dont want to go to school. Honestly i could say ill get through it with friends, but I dont have any friends, my one best friend has a gf more like a wife. What should I do, I know most of you guys have been through this before who hasent, she got ****ed at me today because i kept calling her and said some pretty bad things to her. If I dont talk to her for a week or see her for a week you guys think shell be back? Im already starting to move on and see maybe were not gonna be able to get back together again and ill have to move on, but what should I do through out the day, what are some good stress relievers, sorry for the long story but I thought its a bunch of guys in here, they have gone through the same thing though most dont like to admit it. And some might say just go out and find another girl and hit it, but I cant, Im the relationship kind of guy, not saying im the puss who will do anything, but im the kind of guy who plays hard to get until i find the right girl. Its hard knowing she dosent want you. The way I see it is for her, she dosent have that many people. Her best friend is the kind of person who kisses every guy and does crazy things but only thinks about her self, if she were to call her about something important shell probably say she needs to go, if she called ehr crying she might listen and then try to make her feel better but thats it. Her mom is the kind of person who cares ALOT, but will lecture you when you come to her with a problem. Her dad just dosent talk its that simple. She sees her brother as a little brat. She really dosent have many friends, she has friends but know on really their for her besides those people. So it was a really big shock when she told me she didnt want to do this anymore, and she needed space. Again there is no other guy in her life, but Im hoping when something does happen and she runs to those people and they let her down, im hoping shell come back to me, if that happens in the next week, ill probably take her back, if i start moving on, ill be there for her as a friend, but thats about it.